What is the greatest love in the world? A lover's love, a friend's love, a parent's love? There is no answer to this question because there are too many answers. One can say the former and the other can say the latter. It is an opinion based question where you say what you think, or you say what you feel.

Maybe it's a little too "inexperienced" for a sixteen year old girl to define what Love really is. However, it is not wrong nor "inexperience" to see Love from a sixteen-year-old point of view. I say that Love need not be expressed through obvious words like "I really love you!", simply because what is the point of those words if you hear it but could not feel it? Love is a feeling. Love is an emotion. Love is not just merely words. Words may allow you to feel Love, but you won't be able to grasp it in your hand and scar it deep inside your heart.

Whatever the greatest love in the world might be, parent's love is great. Their love is obscured to most of us because they don't express it straightforwardly like our lovers do. They do things for us out of their love. It is a suffer to love somebody and having the knowledge that the person does not know the love you harbor for him slash her.

I have heard people saying "I hate my mother" or "I hate my father". When you say that, do you really mean it? I wonder. I wish I know the reason why you embrace that hatred towards your parents. I guess it is reasonable to detest your parents if they robbed you of all your rights, your freedom and your life. Yes, parents bring us to the world but they have no right to lead our lives. But, did your parents do that to you to make you loathe them?

I feel lucky to have parents who love me. Dad may be stern, unreasonable or self-centered (sometimes, mostly believing only his own opinions), but I could not find good reasons to hate him. Mum may be not understanding, pessimistic or long-winded, but so what? I do not and could not hate her. The reason simply being that they love me. The little, unimportant things they did accentuate their love.

It was dinner time and as usual, Dad called us (My sister and I were mostly upstairs, normally with our eyes stuck with the computer screen and hands either on the mouse or keyboard) down for dinner. When I was doing something halfway, I'll be really annoyed to stop it and so sometimes the way I answered Dad's call is of impatience. Now that I think of it, regret creeps over me and I promised silently that I'll be good and patient the next time. And back to the dinner that day, we were having "ABC soup" that I love, including the soft carrots and potato in the soup (Especially the carrots). I sat on the dining chair and my bowl of soup was right in front of me. I looked at it and was fill with delight to find it full of carrots. I thought it was a coincidence that Mum had over-scooped extra carrots into my soup. But when I voice out the comment about why mine had extra carrots, Mummy said, "Because I see that you like it." I forgot what was my expression towards that but I was definitely stunned by what she had said because I've never told her I fancy eating the soft carrots in the soup. Maybe she was observant enough to know that I always eat the carrots.

The other time was when I came back from my dance class on Friday (When the Hip Hop class was still on Friday). After having showered and everything, I felt hungry. Mum was not at home, and now I've forgotten where she was during that time. A party or something would be my guess. And so, I went downstairs in search for food. Bread. There was non on the dining table. While I was rummaging, Dad was filling water in his glass and he asked what was I looking for. I said I was hungry and there was no bread. Then, he surprised me by saying, "Do you want to eat then? I'll go out and buy it." It was past eleven at night and so I said no Dad, I'll just have Milo then.

I'll bet a hundred bucks that they had already forgotten about these things that they had done. It is purely because they did it unconsciously out of love. But for me, what they did were meaningful. A very tiny thing, but the effect was big indeed. It showed Love. It told Love. It signified Love. It delineated Love. It is Love.

My parents love me and I love them. So do yours.
The question is, do you love them?

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It was a typical day yesterday when I accidentally pressed something on my keyboard, and I don't know what key did I pressed which caused my lappy's screen to magnify. Seriously, it was 2 to 3 times larger than normal and I was instantly appalled. What the fuck had just happened, I asked myself.


This was the normal screen size.



And this, was the magnified one. Terrific, isn't it?


I don't know what to do to adjust it back to the normal one, and so after a few worried glances at the screen, I turned off my lappy yesterday night and went to sleep. When I came home from school today, I googled for this problem and found that some people had also faced this. And, thanks to some anonymous person who gave the solution, I managed to revert the screen size back to normal! =D


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Chaos over, and about the school today, it was pretty boring, as usual. Ms Fam went on and on with Form5 syllabus. Oh God, I really felt like sleeping off in her class but I tried my best to stay awake as to give her some respect. Well, I understand the feeling when you're talking in front of a group of people and no one's listening.

I will be absent tomorrow! =)



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You're being ridiculous. I could not comprehend.
What have you turned into?
This feeling was the first. You said it will be the last.
But why do I started to doubt your words?
Maybe because all you've done in the past was to break the promises you've made.

I ditched school today because some of the "ditchers" in my class ditched me first. (You know who you are!) Had to fixed my own breakfast and lunch myself though, as Mom and Dad are at Singapore. And yes, I can cook maggie mee without burning down my kitchen.

I had been entertaining myself with Night Whispers and Youda Sushi Chef. The former was a book while the latter was a game. A romance written by Judith McNaught and a local BigFishGame.


Sushi!


Started the sushi restaurant from Sushi Rox, Sushi Empire, Sushi Palace, Sushi Heaven, Sushi Parade and lastly Sushi. Actually, I had wanted to name the last restaurant "Royal Sushi" but I accidentally typed "Sushi" and pressed "enter".


There go my sushi! You'll have to check the recipe for the sushis, then choose the right ingredients and rolled it, then it will be served to the customers. The monitor on the right side is for you to order the ingredient once it is all used up.


The game kept me entertained for the whole afternoon and I had finished all the levels in the game today. Not a bad game though, =D.

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Chocolate, coffee, men ; the richer the better. =)

I really feel relaxed, my burden was totally lifted and thrown away, vaporized in thin air. The after-exam period really feels good, but it'll not last long... The arrival of this end-year holidays indicates SPM is coming nearer and nearer. I still don't wanna face the exam yet, and yeah we should enjoy to the fullest now cus' it's our only chance!

I've gotten some of my exam results... I am quite satisfied with some of it, but others are yet to be uncovered. Hope it all turns out well. Even if it doesn't, I think I can get over it pretty soon. My holiday and I-don't-fucking-care mood is strong enough to triumph over the disappointment, so I'm not very worried. But still, I want results which can balance out the effort I've put in. =)

Ps : Still loving my laptop. =D

I think my readers have already abandoned my blog or deleted the link from their blogs. (Laughs) Ok lahh. I can understand that I had been missing for about a month's time. Most of you obviously knew why. But yes, I'm still very alive and I'm back now. =)

The exams had been stressing me for the past few the weeks before. I didn't really feel the stress of the finals but I guess I had some internal stress which I could not feel but had been showing itself by means of pimples. It truly suck. And anyway, I hope my results will turn out okay, especially all 3 of the science subjects which I do not have much confidence on.

Besides, I'm gonna change my blog skin soon. Had been promising myself that I would do it after the exams.. I had some skins ready which were all very nice and so they gave me a Choosing-Disorder.

Next, I also promised myself that I must do something productive this coming holidays. Oh do not mistaken, of course I will still enjoy myself to the fullest. What with having a bunch of girlfriends who will go shopping with me and a boyfriend who will go dating with me. =P

Today is a freedom day. No tuition, no dancing. Just, free. (Did not mean dancing is an activity I would like to get rid of, but sometimes you just have to have a break :)) Paused my Addmaths tuition for 2 weeks and my Chinese tuition for a week, : This is what you call true relaxation.






Dell XPS Studio 13 (13"), it is a part of my life now. =D
Got this lappy yesterday, I was ecstatic!
The pros of the laptop are :
1) Glossy red surface, yes, good for the person who likes to see herself in the mirror.
2) Amazingly nice back-lit keypad.
3) Good performance. (RAM memory and graphic card are way better than that of my desktop)
4) Touchscreen buttons just in front of my screen to play or pause or stop or skip my songs.

Cons are :
1) May heat up fast? It is tolerably warm now, but I haven't see how hot it will be if I play games.
2) Fingerprints all over the glossy surface
3) Vent for airflow is behind the lappy. By opening the lappy at around 90degrees has already block a part of it.

I think this is it for now... Despite the cons, I'm perfectly happy and contented with it. =)
It's definitely an ideal laptop for me, if I'm only choosing the ones from Dell.

Okay, I'll stop here for now. Sorry for the long leave, will be blogging frequently from now on. =)



Ps : I feel really outdated especially in songs and movies. Have to catch up with it soon. =) (I need new songs!)

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It is closet for you to stuff in all our memories! =)
Happy Birthday Mak Ying Hoong aka Mashi! You're older now, definitely.
Sorry lohh we so "predictable". Lack of practice, cannot blame us!
Anyway, glad that you like the present...You must use it, or else I'll really buy a bowl for Summer instead next year. =D
I love you!

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Physically and mentally exhausted. Pimples popping out. T____T.
In need of sleep, and relaxation.
I wanna exam to be over fast, but it would mean coming to the end of the year. NOOOOO. Spm!
And pray pray pray, I donwanna go NS.

Ps : Aren't my rabbit cute? =D

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I've found this in a mag and cut it out almost immediately.
Agree, no? I do. =)

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